3.15.2013

fml, kind of

I normally avoid writing when I'm pissed off because of what I might say that will most likely hurt me. However I received some news yesterday that completely ruined my day, and I'm throwing caution to the wind. Let me first get you caught up (read hopefully calm down a little) with what's happened over the last week before I get to it. 

Last week I had to put on my nurse maid hat because the beagle developed a case of the runs. On Monday I came home to what I can only describe as a scatological crime scene. Poor thing had a terrified "I did a bad thing" look on her face too. I bathed her, clean up the scene, and then had her checked out. She got a hold of something that didn't agree with her is all that was wrong. She was kind of in bad shape so I spent the next day working from home while I looking after her. We all have our favorite meals when we're sick and she's no different. For the rest of the week I made and fed her boiled/shredded chicken breast mixed in brown rice which was made with the leftover broth. The remainder of the week I took turns with the dog walker checking on her and am happy to report there were no more scenes to clean again. Her issue cleared up by the weekend and she was back to making nuggets. 

Now here's what set me off. My manager informed me during our one on one session yesterday that upper management rescinded her decision which allowed me to work full time from the local office. I will have to resume commuting three hours a day (minimum) back to and from the old office again. The upside is I get to keep working from the local office on Fridays, and she'd see about making it two days a week later on. She also said I coud work the next week at the local office before having to come back. This made her fifty kinds of awesome to me because she also said if it were up to her I could remain where I am at. The downside is I'm back to thriteen hour days again. I don't want to get into the minutia behind the change, but can confirm that it's shit. There is one unrelated bit of good news that I remembered in all of this. I'm above my personal goal of acrued vacation time and close to the ceiling limit where I have to use it or lose it. Looks like I'll be taking some strategically schedule vacation time soon.

This news also comes on the heels of some doubt I've been wrestling with over the last few weeks. Things have been going well for me since a little before my vacation in January. So well, in fact, that I began second guessing whether my plans are right for me at all. I think what touched it off was reading about how some of the other bloggers were ditching the mobile life in favor of the sticks and bricks one. It was then that I started thinking about a mental list of the reasons to stay. I a few months away from paying off my final bill and saving a substantial amount of income every month. I was living in a better city than the one I just left. I've lost count of all the future ex-wives that I've met here. I live minutes away from several fantastic local hikes. I've taken control of and improved my health. I love the vibe at the new office, and the people there are nicer. Things are good again so why change when there's no need to. Right? 

That's when I remembered to simply ask myself why. When I did I realized I was becoming complacent due to how well things have been going, and almost forgotten that this was the very same hole I've spent the last several years clawing my way out of. What my manager told me yesterday was a solid reminder that I need to be focused and all the validation I needed to know I'm on the right course.


This is a picture I took on a trip to New Mexcico a few years ago and is now my desktop wallpaper. Most importantly it's a reminder that there is a better way.

6 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear things have not been going good for you lately. Glad your dog is doing better. I can relate to getting side tracked and forgetting what my dream and goal is from time to time. Putting that image for your trailer on your Desk Top is a great idea.

    Take care,

    Tina

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    1. It happens to the best of us but I'm back on track :-)

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  2. Don't give up, please, I need someone to live vicariously through.

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    1. I haven't, just got a little sidetracked is all. Having said that I'm not really living that much of a wild life out here. At least nothing that I'm sharing atm ;-)

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  3. Sorry to hear about your challenges lately.
    Well, at least you're still employed. The way things are nowadays, it's hard to get proper employment and you can count yourself as one of the lucky ones. I still hope to get a better rig in the future. I realized my low cieling van won't cut it in a full time living situation. You're lucky to have your home there! I've seen it inside and I just about fell in love with the layout. It's a perfect small apartment. Seeing it made me rethink about getting a full vehicle or a towable one like what you have. It has its advantages for sure. :) This reply is late so I saw your most recent posting already on having decided to stay put and take advantage of the status quo. Take care!

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    1. Yeah the all in one setup didn't appeal to me since it meant I would have to give up my truck. Towing can be kind of a pain, but the benefits are worth it.

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